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Thursday, August 1, 2013

Writer?

Dating is weird. I'm not doing a lot of it, but enough to say that I did NOT miss this stage of life. I never really experienced the dating stage, and I do NOT feel bad about that.

"Tell me about yourself," they say.

Blank stare.
Who am I?
I used to say, "I'm a wife and mother."
But I'm not a wife anymore. Then I start to think about not being a wife anymore and that gets my mind going in the wrong direction. And let's face it, being a mother is a weird way to start that conversation.

I used to say, "I'm a writer."
But I'm not a writer anymore, am I? I haven't written anything to speak of in ages. When I say that I feel like a fake. My writing bone is broken or something.
I'm a blogger?
Sort of, I guess. If one post per month counts as "a blogger".

Luckily I'm a mildly humorous person and can deflect that question. I'm getting quite good at it, actually.

Being single takes a great deal more effort in the personal appearance realm. It shouldn't, and if I could go back I would have taken more time for that in my marriage as well. But it's not a great feeling "advertising" yourself. It's like applying for jobs... sort of.

I prefer Netflix and my pajamas, if you want the truth. But out I go, because I don't want to spend my life alone. Because it hurts less when I am involved in something. Because when I get dressed up, I feel pretty, and that changes everything, even if just for one night.

Because I miss having someone to call my own. 

1 comment:

  1. Hmmmmm..well I'm not a great advice give hun...but..I might as well be divorced...and being in a relationship Like I've been in...I have NO desire to ever be in another relationship ever...I'm super content being completely ...let's see engrossed with my kids ...they and a handful of friends make me happy...but knowing u very well.. Ur the sweetest most loving, funny, and an amazing mother..u are just amazing...and as awkward as it may be to try and date just be yourself and go for it...you so deserve a prince charming!!

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