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Monday, July 23, 2012

Reality bites.

There's no money.
I've been ignoring this fact for quite some time. Denial in the highest degree.

I have no car so I have to ride the bus to work at 5 am, which I also can't afford. Did you know riding the bus is more than $3 now? Is that some kind of joke?!

Medicaid dropped us. Partly because I haven't opened an ORS case (child support) against Steve yet, but mostly because Medicaid makes it a game to drop as many people as they can and waste resources getting them re-qualified ten days later. In the mean time people go off their medication which they can't afford without Medicaid and do drastic, dangerous things because they are unstable and stressed out about the impossible Medicaid system. I work as many hours as I can, at 6 am five days/week, but guess what, I make a grand total of 7.50/hour and I pay the babysitter 5. Yep, that means I make about $2/hour. (So please spare me the All-American lecture about getting off my ass and working.) The point of the Medicaid rant was to point out that I am, in fact, still un-medicated because I can't afford to pay $190 for thirty days of magic A.D.D. pills. 

There is NO money.

I'm in complete and utter shock over my situation and can't seem to function at all. I got the ball rolling with ORS today, but still so much to be done and no money at all with which to do it.

The reality of my situation has hit, and it's hitting hard.


  1. Does the State of Utah subsidize childcare for certain income brackets? I don't know much about it, but I know Missouri does it because at B's daycare, a lot of the people seem to get help from the state to pay for it. My comment is very helpful beyond the general concept, but it's something to look into. Keep on keeping on. You're doing great. You eat an elephant one bite at a time (or whatever that silly expression is)!

  2. UGH -- I meant that my comment ISN'T very helpful

  3. Ugh, that whole situation sucks Aubrey! And its so hard to find good paying jobs these days. Do you take Ritalin or Adderall?

  4. EmmaLee Haight PryorJuly 23, 2012 at 10:29 PM

    There might be the possibility of a better job. My parents are missionaries at the Church Employment Center at the DI on Redwood Road. I have been amazed at some of the stories they have told me. A lot of them involve recently single women with children that are re-entering the workforce because of the end of a relationship. They have tremendous resources with regard to resume and interview helps and they have Linked In contacts with a lot of companies. You are in a super tough position right now, but I would hope this might be something that would help. I am sure there is an employment center in Centerville that could help you also. If you want to call them their home phone is: 801-561-9019 or cell is 801-502-5388. I am so sorry for all the stuff you are going through......

  5. EmmaLee Haight PryorJuly 23, 2012 at 10:31 PM

    That cell phone number is actually 801-502-0604....I gave you my husband's number and since he is also looking for a job that wouldn't be much help! Hahahaha.

  6. Yes, being poor sucks. It always makes me so mad to see those eCards on FB about being pissy over people on welfare. I don't have an iPhone! I can barely afford the quarters to do my laundry!
    Ashli O is right, you should definitely look into subsidized child care. I'm pretty sure Title XX is a federal program, so you might want to start there.
    I hope things turn around for you soon. You're such a great writer, do you freelance? You should.

  7. I'm so sorry hun! I know things at work aren't that great either. I will keep looking to see what I can do to help you out if you would like. In a few weeks, I should have a set schedule so I will be around a little more often. If you need anything, don't be afraid to call or text me, day or night. <3

  8. I hate that everything comes down to the amount of money in our pockets. I know what you're going through. I'm swimming in credit card debt because I use my credit cards for gas and groceries and certain monthly bills, and make the minimum payments. It's to expensive to live in this day and age.

  9. "Just keep swimming...just keep swimming..."
    It's what I tell myself everyday, because if you stop to dwell in the weight of the situation, you'll drown. Keep your head up and you'll get through.

    Pamela Gold, you're so right, it is too expensive to live in this day and age. It's ridiculous, really. No one should have to struggle to live, stay healthy, and care for your kids, but SO many of us are. Sad. So sad.

    And Aubrey, my babysitter takes more of my check than I do too. :(

  10. If you are willing to travel further to/from work, there are a few places that pay more than what you make now that shouldn't be too hard to get:
    TPUSA for customer service agents pays around $11/hour.
    eBay's customer service department pays around $12/hour.
    Convergys pays $10 - $13/hour.
    Verizon Wireless pays $13 - $18/hour for CS agents.
    Marriott's reservations center pays $10/hour.
    Might be tough with only using public transportation, but still...Retail doesn't pay anywhere near as much as it should, and you have to deal with being on your feet all day, people being slobbish, etc.

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