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Sunday, June 3, 2012


My dad called and asked me, "Well, how's the roller coaster?" Perfectly stated, if I do say so myself.

I'm riding one hell of a roller coaster and the "mood" swings are making me a bit ill. One moment I am fine, happy to be alive and feeling like a free bird. The next moment I'm crying over lost dreams and failed plans.

Unfortunately people are getting caught in the middle of it because I don't live in a cave. My mom, especially. I have been kind of a beast and I feel just terrible about it. Except when I feel angry and resentful and completely selfish; at that point I'm only thinking of me.

I'm not sleeping. Even with ambien I am awake most of the night, tossing, turning, obsessing, worrying. Max doesn't want to sleep here either, so that's extra fun.

It's going to be OK. I know it's going to be OK. But damn it's hard.


  1. It's hard to get over something you've poured your heart into for so long. It sucks but time isn't your friend at the moment. Soon enough. xoxox

  2. It's never a fun ride this bitch of a roller coaster...but just keep reminding yourself that there is an end of the line and you'll get there. I know you will


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