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Friday, February 25, 2011

I learned something awesome today

7:55 pm. My bedroom.

So there we were, the kids finally in bed, the Husband driving me absolutely insane with his antics, and I thought, "I could go to bed right now. There is nothing stopping me from going to bed right now!"

I sat there for a moment, considering the wonder that is choice. Finally, my children were old enough to all be put to bed at a decent hour, and I could choose to just lay down...

So I did.

I have some trouble sleeping each night, mostly due to my inability to quiet my compulsively-worrying mind, so I have a prescription of Ambien next to my bed. It works out for me because it gets me to sleep nicely, but it still allows me to wake up if the kids need me in the night.

I told Husband, "I'm going to bed now. Watch whatever you want," and I took an Ambien.

You'd think I'd just announced that I'm ready to accept my Communist Destiny.
"It's eight o'clock!" he said, jaw wide open, looking hurt.

"I know. The kids are in bed and I'm tired. I'm going to go to sleep." The statement seriously gave me an 'independent woman' high I haven't felt in a long time.

Do you know what happened? My body relaxed into the bed, and I slept. 
And do you know what happened after THAT?
I woke up at 6:50 am, AWAKE and READY for the day to begin.

I don't think that has ever happened to me before.
Like, ever.
Mornings are groggy, Medusa-looking experiences, and my mumbling can rarely be interpreted into English until at least 10 am.

Not today!
Today I greeted my children with a smile and a "good morning!"
Today I took my meds before I even saw my children, and I didn't even resent Husband for still snoring in the bed.
Today I sat in the quiet living room, under my favorite blanket, staring at the newly-fallen snow and eating my cereal in peace.

Today I can't wait for 8:00 pm, as I fully intend to fall sleep ridiculously early. 

1 comment:

  1. I find myself torn by the 8pm choices...sleep, tv, time with the hubs, blogs, work, read. Somehow although I psych myself up for relaxing, yet I'm still wide awake come 11pm and a grouch in the morning. I may need to reevaluate my decision making skills, they aren't helping me cope in the AM!


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