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Friday, July 30, 2010

Why is a Raven Like a Writing Desk?

I am a huge believer in therapy (especially when combined with the right medications when necessary. I'll take you on any day, Tom Cruise). I have been in therapy many times in my life, starting when I was seventeen, and I have recently started again since Husband and I decided to work things out. (For those of you who don't know me, Husband and I split up for 8 months, starting in August 2009, and we decided to start over and try again April 2010 - but that's a story for another day.)

We are going to marriage counseling once a week to work out our issues from the split, and I am also going to my own personal therapist to work even more in-depth with my self-image problems, depression and anger issues. I don't love my therapist, but it's definitely better than nothing, and with my insurance I don't have a lot of options right now.

Seriously, though, I think everyone should be in therapy. It's so helpful to have someone to talk to who doesn't have any place in your life, except in that office. She (or he) isn't involved at all, so you can be entirely honest and leave all your pain in that room when you leave. I love to see the door close after I finish a session, knowing all that stuff I just got off my chest is staying in there, not coming home with me.

But what do you do when therapy isn't enough? When medication, therapy, and meditation isn't enough? What do you do when you still feel like the weight of the world is too much, when your marriage is still scary and rocky, and everyone thinks you're crazy because of the sheer number of breakdowns you've been having?

Sometimes I wonder if they're right. Could I actually BE crazy? Am I just crazy, and all this work I've been putting into everything just isn't worth anything because I'm certifiably insane?




I'm pretty sure I'm not actually mad... but I guess time will tell.

4 comments:

  1. OK, I'll bite . . . why IS a raven like a writing desk?

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  2. Because it can produce a few notes, tho they are very flat; and it is never put with the wrong end in front! :) (Aubs, you're not crazy. Hang in there girl)

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  3. I don't know, Dad. It's a line the Mad Hatter says in Alice in Wonderland. :)

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  4. Perhaps it's because most people pay exactly the same amount of attention to what issues forth from either of them.

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